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no better
02:39
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you claim to be a lover, not a fighter
guess that makes me no better than you
you’ve got me pinned down as a liar
like you have the guts to spill the truth
you’re taking all cues to start a fire
cause you know i’ve got so much to lose
just for me to be thrown into a spiral
stuck like the gum beneath your shoes
got a prior engagement
with my self hatred
bound to be married
to my insecurities
you put me down like a dog at the pound
me & you both wish i was never around
just let me go ahead & let you down
you’re probably used to it by now
you treat me no better
than i do myself
yet i’m more bitter
just knowing it was you
you claim to be calm and not a cutthroat
guess that makes me no better than you
planned to take my role as scapegoat
the entire scenario gives me deja vu
i am “a disappointment”, end of quote
living my life without an escape route
can barely look at what you wrote
cause i’m listed as the biggest issue
got a prior engagement
with my self hatred
bound to be married
to my insecurities
you put me down like a dog at the pound
me & you both wish i was never around
just let me go ahead & let you down
you’re probably used to it by now
you treat me no better
than i do myself
yet i’m more bitter
just knowing it was you
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2. |
loveblind
02:40
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sleep on my floor if that’s what you want
you know i won’t notice when you’re gone
catch it all on film & turn the lights off
i don’t love you but you don’t stop
you leave me a kiss that i don’t take
see you in the morning for your sake
your love is laced, but with naiveté
so you trip over yourself anyways
i want to uncover the truth
but that’s not something i can do
when you’ve gone beyond
screwed up second chances
& rose tinted glasses
you’re so fucking loveblind
but i can never leave you behind
send me love letters if that’s what you want
i’ll toss them unopened towards my lawn
give me a reason to mention your name
nothing’s gonna help you, just call it game
leave you in the dust, collar round your neck
my final decision, no i don’t second guess
stop calling me in to clean up your mess
you always get stuck in some nonsense
i want to uncover the truth
but that’s not something i can do
when you’ve gone beyond
screwed up second chances
& rose tinted glasses
you’re so fucking loveblind
but i can never leave you behind
calling you a let-down
is just an understatement
you keep on trying but
skin just scrapes pavement
i want to uncover the truth
but that’s not something i can do
when you’ve gone beyond
screwed up second chances
& rose tinted glasses
you’re so fucking loveblind
but i can never leave you behind
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kerosene
03:16
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im just a kerosene kiss away
from going up in flames
the smallest things seem to stick
from everyone’s that’s left
im nostalgic for the feeling
of remembering that im sick
after failed attempts in healing
just lay what’s dead to rest
can you be my happy medium
can you hit me when im down
give me something to come home to
leave my remains, escape without sound
between your ruined heart and mine,
turn small parts into a whole
i’ll play pretend with these ideas
imaginary romance of me and you
im just a kerosene kiss away
from going up in flames
my past is a lethal car crash
that i can’t look away from
searching for connections
from days that came to die
looking for answers to questions
cause im tired of asking you why
can you be my happy medium
can you hit me when im down
give me something to come home to
leave my remains, escape without sound
between your ruined heart and mine,
turn small parts into a whole
i’ll play pretend with these ideas
imaginary romance of me and you
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4. |
silence
03:46
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would you be proud of me, to know
that everything wrong with me
it’s all because of you and
i’ve stopped being afraid of the truth
but as you talk in your sleep
and i breathe, heavy in my chest
i think twice whenever these thoughts haunt me
and i know what it’s like to lose faith
parallels in godlessness and hopelessness
again
like the smoke of a gun or cigarette
you turn to look once then feel the regret
the burning heat and remnants of ash
wait for the forgiveness that you ask
that you ask of me
is there still a possibility, to know
that a future where im happy
is so much closer to me and
right now it’d be more of a dream
but as you crawl out the window
and i leave my eyes on the screen,
i think twice whenever you want to see me
and i know what it’s like to lose faith
parallels in godlessness and hopelessness
again
like the smoke of a gun or cigarette
you turn to look once then feel the regret
the burning heat and remnants of ash
wait for the forgiveness that you ask
that you ask of me
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5. |
absences
02:58
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so you’ve got someone
care to explain that for me
world’s not built just for one
so i’m sitting here lonely
looking for answers in places
they could never be
hiding razors under my tongue
so i never have to speak
i spend all of my time,
traveling with self-doubt
carrying baggage that
no one cares about
i am the after effects
of damage
i find shame in guilt
all you do is lie to me
which has been expected
no goodbyes as you leave
of course i feel neglected
i hold so much regret
you say it’s my fault you left
i spend all of my time,
traveling with self-doubt
carrying baggage that
no one cares about
i am the after effects
of damage
i find shame in guilt
i’ve learned how to live
and grow up quickly
with no room to breathe
i’ve learned since you’ve left me
and lost so much sleep
you’re in all my bad dreams
still catching up on sleep
still catching up on sleep
still catching up on sleep
i spend all of my time,
traveling with self-doubt
carrying baggage that
no one cares about
i am the after effects
of damage
i find shame in guilt
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6. |
identity
02:28
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i got problems worth dime a dozen
overthinking before tragedies happen
falling victim to my own devices
letting myself down before i could get up
feeding a monster that i am afraid of
tired of myself more than i’d like to admit
funny how this all works out
with myself
scream & cry at my own name
living is to walk through hell
every day
i can’t get a good look at my face
i just punch the mirror
smile & laugh at my own pain
like i deserve anyways
i can’t get a good look at my face
i just punch the mirror
with tears in my eyes i’ll force myself to stay
seeking solutions to absolve this shame
with all these tears, they’d drown an ocean
kept my hands to my face
to hide that i can’t keep sane
i sabotage myself more than i’d like to admit
funny how this won’t work out
with myself
scream & cry at my own name
living is to walk through hell
every day
i can’t get a good look at my face
i just punch the mirror
smile & laugh at my own pain
like i deserve anyways
i can’t get a good look at my face
i just punch the mirror
maybe i’m worth something
maybe i’m more than nothing
cause i happen to be
the very best at being the worst
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ghostly
03:34
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im a ghost like you're a ghost
silently banging on cabinets
silently telling everyone to grow up
would you get over this
in the screams, you whisper
in the screams, you demand answers
these are things you’ll never know
for sure
sometimes i forget
what safety feels like
as you hold me in this grip
so that i’d never tell
i just wanna be let back in
not like the ghost of myself
that i keep seeing
im a ghost like you’re a ghost
silently wondering what happened
silently stopping to ask myself
is this what i wanted
in the screams, you linger
in the screams, you demand closure
these are things you’ll never keep
for sure
sometimes i forget
what safety feels like
as you hold me in this grip
so that i’d never tell
i just wanna be let back in
not like the ghost of myself
that i keep seeing
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8. |
in violence
02:46
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i want you to kiss my wounds
& hold me close
hang onto me
like a long drag from a cigarette
got me clinging to everything
let me finally
get to know
the taste of your apathy
my heart plays punchbuggy
with itself whenever i see you
i’ll be torn in two
so hopeless & blue
cause i miss you
i'll even wait this out
scared with self doubt
cause i miss you
more than anything
i want you to feign the truth
& lead me on
keep distracting me
you are loved & then there’s me
finding love in death desperately
let me finally
get to know
the taste of your sanity
my head likes to play these tricks
on itself whenever i see you
i’ll be torn in two
so hopeless & blue
cause i miss you
i'll even wait this out
scared with self doubt
cause i miss you
more than anything
there’s more love in violence
than you seem to know
i can sense it every time that
your hands are around my throat
dying at your hands is really
the only way i wanna die
dying at your hands is really
the only way i wanna die
i’ll be torn in two
so hopeless & blue
cause i miss you
i'll even wait this out
scared with self doubt
cause i miss you
more than anything
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9. |
dear you
02:55
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if you must
know everything
know it hurts to be
around like this
still with your words
suffocating me
like your hands are wrapped
all around my neck
still remember when
i first felt like this
now i just cry
& ball up my fists
yet, dear you,
consume
all these thoughts and fears
tell the truth
dying to hear about it
yeah, dear you
come on let me down again
disappointment’s my best friend
yes i’ll regret the words
but it won’t compare to
the things i’ve heard
all coming in from
you, dear you
yes you, dear you
if you don’t
admit to anything
know that i hide
your realities
still with your stares
piercing through my skin
i cover up wounds
with fake memories
still remember when
i would take the risk
now i just cry
as you strike again
yet, dear you,
consume
all these thoughts and fears
tell the truth
dying to hear about it
yeah, dear you
come on let me down again
disappointment’s my best friend
yes i’ll regret the words
but it won’t compare to
the things i’ve heard
all coming in from
you, dear you
yes you, dear you
i am just these broken bones
take these pieces & ship them home
try to make me whole again
screaming, “dear you, im afraid of the end”
yet, dear you,
consume
all these thoughts and fears
tell the truth
dying to hear about it
yeah, dear you
come on let me down again
disappointment’s my best friend
yes i’ll regret the words
but it won’t compare to
the things i’ve heard
all coming in from
you, dear you
yes you, dear you
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last kid alive Oakland, California
east bay post-hxc | unreality lives where we build it a home
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